Yesterday I shared about anticipating the future. About how I was always looking ahead and missing what was going on in the here and now. As I was writing/typing, God began to speak to me. Of all things, He began to reveal to me my next post. I couldn't wait to write/type it! :) How ironic.
I began to realize that looking ahead and anticipating what was to come is not my greatest time waster anymore. I no longer look forward with anticipation, I look back with regret. I look back and regret looking forward. Wow I really confused myself there.
I look back and regret those years I wasted pursuing the party, the money, all the things of this world. I look back and regret the choices I made as a teenager. I look back and regret how I disrespected my wife. How I didn't appreciate her or love her the way I've been called to do. I look back and regret how I treated my children. The lack of patience, understanding, and time invested in their lives. The example I set for them to follow was not honorable. I look back and see ways that I was disrespected, hurt, and wounded deeply. It is so easy to look back with regret, anger, resentment, bitterness and let it consume you.
Looking back is like a cancer. By dwelling in the past you allow the past to control your present and direct your future. It will consume you. It will devour you. It will chew you up and spit you out. I need to let it go. (Isaiah 43:18 Forget the former things; do not dwell in the past.)
Precious seconds, minutes, hours, days and months have been consumed, wasted and lost because I have been looking back. Wrapped up in things I can't change. I can't go back and fix it. Time continues even when I stop.
God didn't give me today to dwell in yesterday. I need to press on and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness. I need to fight the good fight of the faith TODAY!
Philippians 3:13b-14 Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
4 comments:
Kenny, it is very easy to look back and say "I wish I would have done this differently" but look where God has you now. You are being molded into the man God wants you to be. I pray everyday that my kids will see Jesus through me. Right now they are getting to the age where I am "not cool anymore." I just continue to pray for God's hand to lead them and mold them into the children He wants them to be. I thank you and Kim for being such wonderful disciples. Susan V.
I'm praying that this revelation is the key to freeing you from your burden, my brotha...
Thanks Clay. I covet prayer. Susan thanks for the kind words. Just remember you're the Mom. Moms aren't always cool. Dads are! :) Ha!
Dad's are way cooler than Mom's :)
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